Alive lyrics

Every single night, the same arrangement
I go out and fight the fight
Still I always feel this strange estrangement
Nothing here is real, nothing here is right
I`ve been making shows of trading blows
Just hoping no one knows
That I`ve been going through the motions
Walking through the part
Nothing seems to penetrate my heart

I was always brave and kind of righteous
Now I find I`m wavering
Crawl out of your grave, your finest fight just
Doesn`t mean a thing
She ain`t got that swing
Thanks for noticing

She does pretty well with feinds from Hell
But lately we can tell
That she`s been going through the motions
Faking it somehow
She`s not even half the girl she---ow!

Will I stay this way forever?
Sleepwalk through my life`s endeavor?
How can I repay--
Whatever
I don`t wanna be
Going through the motions
Losing all my drive
I can`t even see
If this is really me
And I just wanna be
Alive