Amateur lyrics

You made me feel like i`m ok, i could be happy
now i can sit, not run away stupidly laughing
wipe out all self-pity, it`s slowing me down
turn off feeling pretty, dressing up dressing down.
i walk around the city out of my way, looking for something
i`ve got all that i need to save my day, so why`m i running?
you said i should get professional help, it always makes me cry.
i know i`m just an amateur, but i`ve gotta try.
i had a birthday party and it was packed, got friends who love me
we hung a disco ball up and watched the lights, they were so lovely
when exactly are we? i get the decades mixed up.
i like the streets when they`re empty, i can make the rest up.
every day is new year`s eve, every night is the last night.
every day is new year`s eve, every time is the last time