Avalanche lyrics

I wasn`t ready for the avalanche
When we let things slide
I`d always hoped that we would have the chance
At least to say we tried
So i went sifting though my old mistakes
On the day you left
And i decided to forgive myself
The heart can only take so much regret

You`re all i`m aching for
And yet
I don`t want this pain no more
And yet
My heart won`t lock that door
I wasn`t ready for the avalanche

I wasn`t ready for the words you chose
When you said goodbye
Or just how suddenly the roads could close
Between your life and mine
So i went looking for the reasons why
And i got so lost
And i decided i would have to try
To live without your love at any cost

You`re all i`m aching for
And yet
I don`t want this pain no more
I can`t get
My heart to lock that door
And i wasn`t ready for the avalanche