Blacksox lyrics

I`m afraid of a sure thing of a change in the here
and now and the force when it hits me the full weight of it when I`m down
The fucking air in the city when the phase-shifting sign is off
if this ship is unsteady, how will that lifeboat hold us all
I aint gonna crawl->tell them all to forget it tell them that`s
it then call it off cause I`m worried about money and paradigm stores running low
I ain`t gonna crawl but I`ll lie on the road
so how can I laugh how can I take it without some doubt
how can I laugh how can I face it right away with everything gone wrong
with everything all over anyway I need some grace
Say goodbye to aesthetic,
better taste and essential self `cause I`m just tired of running
and there`s a time bomb in this head
So just who`s the real killer and what made his paint dry?
It`s kind of hard to imagine Holidays in Neurotica
A slap in the faith, hard, opened hand is the one reality
I can never protect myself from, even in the sparkle yard at end
of day warm summer madness in the bouquet of a dream son,
astral projecting, failing to right wrongs when the whole thing starts to open up
I ain`t gonna crawl without falling hard, without some pain
whenever the fog breaks and a day takes hold
I just can`t think straight right away maybe I`ll come around...
or not I`m swinging again and all my ex-friends say its psycho-pathetic
and way too gone, almost painless even though I wondered
if something was wrong all along.