Breaking The Habit lyrics

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
Im picking me apart again
You all assume
Im safe here in my room
(unless I try to start again)

I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
Cause inside I realize
That Im the one confused

I dont know whats worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I dont know why I instigate
And say what I dont mean
I dont know how I got this way
I know its not alright
So Im
Breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

Ill paint it on the walls
Cause Im the one at fault
Ill never fight again
And this is how it ends

I dont know whats worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I dont know how I got this
Ill never be alright
So Im
Breaking the habit
Breaking the habit
Tonight