Disheartenment lyrics

Lying in a dark corner
The black candle light is dying out
Trying to refuse this suffering
As coldness burns my pale naked flesh

I faced my fears a thousand times
Endless doubts - Life of paranoia
I try to find a way out
From this state of suicidal urge

I watch with empty eyes the blade
As tears begin to fall down my face
Another night alone with myself
At one with melancholy and depression

I bleed because the dark is near
I cry as i realize you can` t be here
I need to caress your skin in the night
But now my only friend remains this knife

Why must i live with these fears?
I know my only tragedy is my mind
Sometimes i think i`m wasting all the joys
And with this bitter thought i fear to die

I feel so jaded now, so far away
I can`t face next morning with this pain
Another cut lacerates my flesh
Sometimes i think it will be the last

I`m only trying to objectivate this hate
I prove towards myself and life itself
I only need to watch these fifty wounds
I opened upon my body in the night

I only need to stop these sick death thoughts
And cry for joy when you`ll be here again
I`ll watch you sleeping naked at my side
I`ll kiss you and this blood will stop to flow

Everyone can kill himself one day
Life brings pain and suffering on our way
Cut your wrists, it`s simpler than it seems
But in death you`ll know...
Disheartenment wins