Dissed Him lyrics

Dissed him, now I miss him,but I miss him because I dissed him. but he done me wrong and I`m not that strong to resist him, so I dissed him. Should I have kissed him when I dissed him? Should I have dissed when I really miss him? I don`t really know but I`m all and now I miss him, I really miss him.
Now that he`s gone out of my life, I don`t know rather to laugh or to cry. It cuts like a knife, everytime we say goodbye, I wanna die. He`s so deserving, but he`s so self serving, he made me so mad I know it;s sad `cause now I want him so bad. But he lied to me and he knows that that shit ain`t gonna fly with me.
HOOK

Weeks go by he doesn`t show, I can`t breath no more and my heart is aching so. Confuse emotions in every way and if I could have him here then I`d see better days. If he could see what he`s done to me. I can`t sleep and I can`t eat and I`m on my knees, begging the Lord to find my love and send him back `cause now I realize he was the apple of my eye.
HOOK
So what do I do I`m so in love with you but somethings got to change I can`t go on this way. I spent plenty nights trying to make it right `cause I love you boy and I want you inmy life. It`s like a melody in a song that`s haunting me. The memories of deceit makes it hard for us to creep. I need a little disicioline in my life, `cause my soul I won`t sacrifice

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