Gough lyrics

It`s getting harder to decide on which way i should go
Should i let myself down fast?
I don`t think i wanna know
It`s over said but understated just how hard it can be
Hey i think i`ve seen this road before and it`s so hard to believe
I`d be back this way again after i told myself to leave
You never said that it was gonna be easy
But i didn`t know just how hard it would be
I go `round and `round
I`m lost and found
I`m never happy in the middle I`ve gotta be up or down
Just when i think I`ve found level ground
I turn around and destroy all of the life i`ve found
Well self-destruction`s kinda dumb
But if you do it well
You can find heaven if you can handle hell
It`s all a part of understanding
just how strange life can be
Living a lie becomes so easy
but now i just want to be free
I feel inside out never thought i`d doubt
my ability to work it all out
Going forward to fall back
working hard to relax
I never thought that i would be following my own tracks
it`s going `round... It`s going `round... It`s going `round