Hypothetical Situation lyrics

I`m less than nothing and holding my nerves
Exposed and lonely, addiction draws me near
Designed to crush me a six year haze as the substance lets me down
Cause it`s not real and that`s why
It`s how I always want to feel so let`s die
before the secrets get revealed
I`m falling over from scratches built through time
For timeless mistakes, my memories dissolve
and all I know are these scars
And it`s not real and that`s why
It`s how I always want to feel so let`s die,
before the secrets get revealed
I`ve tried but nothing can ever appeal
and if you don`t mind I`d like to throw it all away
Well I`ve been down that road, the sober soldier
I doubt I`ll make it home so get me away from here,
before I fall apart
Cause it`s easy to do and it feels and it seems true
But it`s not real and that`s why
Its how I always want to feel so let`s die,
before the secret gets revealed
I`ve tried but nothing ever can appeal
and if you don`t mind I`d like to throw it all away