Killer S Lullaby lyrics

I`m sittin` at a coffee table, unable to see straight
Watchin` parallel lines unwind and undulate
Behind the rain-streaked windowpane, the scene`s bleak
Another train leavin` home,
conceding defeat with a low moan

Hangin` in A sky, made of stone
Everybody`s leavin` home, I called my man Jerome
To come meet me in the twilight zone
Leave your mobile phone at home and come alone

I bought him coffee and a snack,
settled back, started speakin`
He was tweakin` with the peak of his cap
While I`m seekin` to discover what it takes to stay sober
Not cover my mistakes,
try to maybe make sense of the evidence
It`s over, she`s gone for good
Why should I lie, singin` a killer`s lullaby
Identified by the dying ring of her goodbye
The last thing you hear before your life disappear

Now it just gets worse, like my stomach `ll burst,
feel like I`ve been cursed.
With seven centuries of bitter memories
And inadequacies, previous he`s and she`s
I`m movin` round this old house for the last time
Scene of my past crimes, been here for lifetimes
Hearin` the chimes of the old clock that used to mock
You got eternity for takin` stock,
this place is like a padlock
You look shocked.
Trust me, nothing ever moves but the dust,
There`s just us and I`m here to torment and tease
And that`s how it was for centuries
Me and my memories, till you brought the keys
Took the couple of Saturdays
I moved in runnin` from tragedies and boozing
Seven hundred years since I came here
You appear, same hair, same quizzical stare
I couldn`t get near,
And the sheer frustration was more than I could bear
I was really cursed, thought I`d been through the worst part

That was just the first part, just the start
Every night I`d be sittin` with dread pickin` my heart
In case the man she`d been chasin` gets to first base
An` I just can`t escape, I`m in bad shape
You making love to someone else is more than I can take
And so I make all the movement I can to no avail
Scream and yell, sinkin` deeper into my personal hell

I`m getting heated, I`m sorry, have another coffee
I needed to release my sparrow chest from just a piece of this pressure
Unless an escape route is found,
I`m going down underground
Into lifetimes of pain, it`s absurd
The heaviest chain is contained is the sound of one word
So I`m referred back to hell, huh
Just as well, I hate needles an` get twinges at the thought
of syringes

J, I`m going insane with shame
I dream and watch her makin` love over and over again
With what I call a farmer`s swain
Unintelligent, pea-brained retard who`s dick is always hard
Oh God, of course I`m jealous, fellows,
oversexed flexing his pec`s
Jesus, what`s he going make her do next?
I`m mad vex, the way she gently scratches his chest
You used to do that to me back in 1253
Pity me, while you lie with your lover
I stare and suffer in despair while you ruffle his hair
Unaware of who else is there
I move quick, I want to try my trick one last time
You know it`s possible to vaguely define my outline
When dust move in the sunshine
So I`m tryin` to change, vibrate myself to near-human pitch
Which reminds me how I used to come unstitched
And switch `round the house in a blind rage
It took years and an ocean of tears to find the key to this
cage
And write another stage into a new age,
it`s difficult to gauge
But I know that I`ll see you again, on that you may depend
I just don`t know how or when
Sleep on, my lost love on gone

Jerome took me home under steel skies
Knowing I`m prone to dramatize but unknown for telling lies
And what I verbalize he can see behind my eyes
The why oh why`s that identify killer lullabies
And he surmised
No surprise couldn`t hear that
Closed my eyes as he steered that old black BM home again
Not knowing how and not knowing when