So Many Nights lyrics

so many nights i prayed that this would just stop.
awoke out of my sleep by a sound of a popped lock
my heart would drop to the ground, maybe the fact that my
pops wasn`t around forced you to found these guys that would
just knocked you down or beat you around.
i don`t know. my innocence was lost back then not to be found
and in a sense its like this world was just weighing me down,
leaning it`s weight hard on my shoulders.
making my heart less warm and much more colder,
chip off my tooth and a chip on my shoulders.
i told ya`ll that i don`t play.
i seen drama every goddamn day.
so go ahead, yip yab away, cause now you got a lot to say.

cast your judgments, cast all your stones.
holding my hands, holding on to everything i have
because it`s slipping away so fast and it`s all i have.

i was like 6 then, we had no pot to piss in.
while most kids lives consists of shine and glisten,
mine was lined with mischief. a boy flipping.
devoid of times you find joy to reminisce in.
it`s like time was missing, years were passing.
i was inside while kids were outside laughing.
no time for games, their fake toy planes were crashing,
while me.. my life was crashing.
at night fist fight left my mom`s face smashed in.
her man`s blasted, he threw her down a flight of stairs.
alone and scared i stared in eyes of men who didn`t care.
my father was never there. now i am prepared for this
lifetime that is unfair, in life i fight from the bottom to the top.
in this life i had to fight for all that i got.
it hurts but i still won`t stop, `til my casket drops.