Speculum lyrics

there are so many people dying
you complain about your situation
what about me?
half the world wouldn`t know what it`s like to lose your seed
maybe you can understand (how it feels)

i cannot reach that soul
you`re probably watching over us
know that i think of you
it`s killing me

the guilt has lasted, you still cry
it was all planned out
why was i last to know
don`t you trust in me
that table`s cold, it`s too late
to make up for these mistakes
maybe you can`t understand (how it feels)

i cannot reach that soul
you`re probably watching over us
know that i think of you
it`s killing me(how it feels)
if i would have known
i can`t say what i would have done
if you could forgive
i`d like to rest with you someday