Stay Loose lyrics

I was choking on a cornflake
You said “Have some toast instead‿
I was sleeping maybe three hours
You said “You should get to bed‿
I was waiting at the church door
For the minister to show
I was looking at the new year
You said “Walk before you crawl‿
I was feeling like a loser
You said “Hey, you`ve still got me‿
I was feeling pretty lonely
You said “You wanted to be free‿
I was looking for a good time
You said “Let the good times start‿
With a quiver of your eyelid
You took on someone else`s part
Maybe I`m a little greedy
You said “Think before you speak‿
Sometimes I`m a little seedy
You said “Everyone is weak‿
Now I feel a little better
Is there something I can do?
But I never heard the answer
I never had a clue
But what about me
I don`t really see
How things will improve
If all you want is to stay loose
There`s a little echo calling
Like a miner trapped inside
If I tell her of this moment
She will in me doubts confide
And she`s on me like a blanket
Like a stalk of wilting grass
I`m not sure about her motives
I`m not sure about her past
But my faith is like a bullet
My belief is like a bolt
The only thing that lets me sleep at night
A little carriage of the soul
If it starts a little bleaker
Then the year may yet be gold
Happiness is not for keeping
Happiness is not my goal
But what about me
I don`t really see
How things will improve
If all you want is to stay loose
But what about them
You play mother hen
To a gaggle of gangling youth
All you want is to stay loose
I was living through the seconds
My composure was a mess
I was miles from tenderness
It was dark outside, the day it was lying in pieces
Everything is flat and dreary
I couldn`t care what`s in the news
Television is the blues
Television is hysterical laughter of people
And I know it could be me
I`m always asking for more
I keep running round in circles
I keep looking for a doorway
I`m going to need two lives
To follow the paths I`ve been taking