Studying Stones lyrics

I am out here studying stones
Trying to learn to be less alive
Using all of my will
To keep very still
Still even on the inside
I`ve cut all of the pertinent wires
So my eyes can`t make that connection
I am holding my breath
I am feigning my death
When I`m looking in your direction

`Course numb is an old hat
Old as my oldest memories
See that one`s my mother
And that one`s my father
And that one in the hat, that`s me
It`s a skill I`d hoped to abandon
When I got out on the open road
But any more pent up emotion
And I think I`m gonna explode

There`s never been an endeavor so strange
As trying to slow the blood in my veins
To keep my face blank
As a stone that just sank
Until not a ripple remains
I am high above the tree line
Sitting cross legged on the ground
When all of the forbidden fruit has fallen and rotted
That`s when I`m gonna come down

`Course numb is an old hat
Old as my oldest memories
See that one`s my mother
And that one`s my father
And that one in the hat, that`s me
It`s a skill I`d hoped to abandon
When I got out on the open road
But any more pent up emotion